Even writing this is probably a sin. Should I stop typing because of my fear of God? What God? The God that I believe in? Or the God that my parents believe in, the 'scriptures' believe in? Whose to say that what religion teaches me is correct? Why would God create something so beautiful and then tell us its wrong? Tests? What tests? What the hell is wrong with SEX anyway?
That would be the thesis of my essay. What's wrong with SEX?
"Oh My God... she had sexual feelings! Oh my God...she's attracted to someone! Gasp, she shall never be forgiven for this sin."
That was the basic message I received from a movie I was watching last night. It's supposed to be a religious drama, where we watch the story of God and people and then learn from their mistakes.
"A lesson is to be taught here daughter, watch carefully."
"But I don't want to watch this mom"
"You have to watch this with us. Now sit."
"Fine."
And as I watched, I became more and more upset and confused. What was wrong with the woman in the moving getting aroused? What was wrong with her desires to love another individual? What's wrong with wanting to have an orgasm - it's described as being one of the most 'light' and spiritual experiences. Why must the words Sin and Sex appear in the same sentence? She's sinned because she wants to satisfy a form of energy that exists in each and every individual? We have 7 chakras in our body. 7 energy points - one of which is sexual energy. Why must we ignore one of these energy points in order to become better individuals? That energy point, too, was placed there by God.
The Kamastura, an ancient Indian scripture describing various methods of sexual activity is not considered to be 'a scripture from the devil.' I think that fact in itself says enough and describes my point clearly.
I'm not saying we should all expose ourselves to each and every individual we meet. I'm not saying we should all seek the opportunity to 'work on that chakra' every time we're in the presence of a member of the opposite sex. I firmly believe that two individuals were made for one another, and so satisfying that level of energy should only be obtained by that one entity, and that one soul. One individual.
But saying that a person is a sinner if they feel certain emotions would be to say that feeling bliss during meditation is a sin, feeling full after a meal is horrible, feeling relieve after a workout is unacceptable...etc, etc, etc.